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9th-Apr-2004 12:32 am
Soo.. I like nudity. I figured I ought to make some contribution in this area. So, posting of naked me, photography by
Any lighting deficiency is my fault for being impatient. :)
Hoping to do a set outside sometime. Mmm... natural light.
12th-Apr-2004 09:25 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)
I rather like learning to be free within the confines, too. :)
12th-Apr-2004 09:53 am (UTC)
Yes, you are very right. :) And of course there are all kinds of confines in the places I go to as well - just some different ones.
I'm chaffing at my self-imposed confines due to the road that runs right next to where I'm currently living. I also can't wait to be off to the middle of nowhere. I seem to be being impatient lately. (hmm.. look inside brain)
I've been really psyched up to do a photo shoot as well for the past several months. Your pictures are very encouraging, as well as wonderful to experience. (I'm working on getting over my fear of cameras.) Natural light would be wonderful. I wish you more great fun the next time you get to play with a camera. :)
12th-Apr-2004 10:04 am (UTC)
Thanks. :) I should get a digicam of my own. :)
Quick response. :) What're you up to, these days?
I owe you some replies, still. ;)
12th-Apr-2004 12:45 pm (UTC)
I've been borrowing Steve's. (grin)
(laugh) Steve says you can use his, too. (I was just acting like his 'tiel at him (as I also typed) and being hyperly-annoying, so he threatened to take my toys away if I didn't quit. Then I read him what I, and you, had just written - speaking of toys.)
Up to.. more finding (sometimes fighting) my way out of my shell. Making progress. :)
Physical logistics - still in north Florida; the plan now is for another 10 days. Steve asked me to stay a little while longer so we could see a little more of each other.. whole history there, but I don't want to take up your whole journal. ;)
Mental logistics - feeling less bad-chaotic now that I'm not working impossible hours. I guess that ties in with the physical; the seasonal truck driving job ended really early, so I am happily unemployed for the indeterminate moment. (Long story about silage adventures omited. ;)
I'm *way* glad that I'm gone from the motel job. I'm really starting to come down from 5 months of accumulated major stress, and starting to feel myself again. (Running an entire motel by yourself 24/7 - all the front desk, repairs, housekeeping, middle of the night check ins, security and evictions, office work - on top of a really inept fucked up owner giving contradictory, and frequently illogical, orders - can really get old fast.)
Also, I was surprised at how much of a psychological affect not being allowed to physically leave the motel had on me.
I'm determinately taking time to work on my health and reach an even more comfortable plateau. Depression is ebbing and I'm stepping into better places in my life. I'm setting up (more) habits to eat healthier again, and that's playing a big part too.
I woke up this morning refreshed, and with a strong desire to go to massage school come winter. Rumor says there is a really good one here in Gainesville - very alternative and not very businesslike. (I have made two other passes at massage schools, since I love massage so much. The first was a business oriented school - I had no idea that sort of split existed in the massage school community. I left in disgust after two weeks. The second was a wonderful alternative school in Sarasota, but it was a 4 hour round trip each day, and additionally I was in a relationship with someone who deliberately knocked me down every time I started to stand tall. (I *really* relate to your "impressions". Both the incredible glorious uplifting joy and strength of it, as well as the fragile foundation underneath.) I lasted three months at the school in Sarasota, and found out some more significant things about myself. It was good, even if unfinished.
I doubt I'll actually go again though, appealing as it is, because (for practical purposes) all schools teach what I call the "burger flipping" approach to massage therapy - they try to fit a pretty standard routine (with some standard variation) into a 1 hour increment.
My approach is not money driven. I love to massage in a way that is far more specific to the individual - the hows and how longs vary enormously. (I'm just as likely to climb up on the table and straddle someone to get a better angle, and I almost always massage in the nude, for example... definitely not "professional" behavior.. well, not professional massage therapist behavior anyway.. ;>
So it is not likely that I will actually do this thing (start massage school) even tho I feel a strong drive to do it right now. I guess I'll just start finding more willing victims instead, and do whatever flows with them.
So it seems I am getting back into massage lately.
Yay, there is a massage table in the bath house at Short Mountain Sanctuary (which is within the greater community of where I'm going in Tenn.). :D
(Slightly worried look) Should I not write such long comments on your journal? I am completely new to the culture(s) here, and am not entirely sure what's ok and what's not. I'm not sure if it's ok to approach it almost like email. (And I'm not sure if the comment "quick response" referred to what you were up to, or a guideline for me. (Huge grin, knowing my tendencies.. ;)
As far as owing replies; you don't need to worry about any specifics with me - life flows.
12th-Apr-2004 02:21 pm (UTC)
Speaking of quick...
Do you have any instant messengers?
You seem to be online, for now. :)
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